Here is copies of my music work on reverbnation - http://reverbnation.com/sinz - I rap, that is my stress release, I feel somewhat energised after making a song, I feel different, it helps me. I want to keep this feeling going. All you can check out songs I did before on my, myspace page http://www.myspace.com/sinz19
Prior to this campaign, I've had a tough 10 months, I was made homeless due to no thought of my own, which declined me further into depths of hell to be quite honest, I then had a major lung collapse in December 2011 and needed major surgery to keep my lung up as normal chest drain wouldn't fix it itself. Then on January 2012 I was admitted back into hospital with Pneumonia - Not only do I suffer with my mental health, but I do suffer with constant pain and breathlessness, it scares me all the time, and sometimes find myself going to the hospital in bad pain, even though they say they find nothing is wrong, I was admitted to hospital not long ago with raised cardiac enzyme levels, I'm not sure if this was serious or not, but the medical staff seemed non-chalant, which doesn't help my mental health in any which way.
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I suffer from severe anxiety/depression/OCD - borderline agrophobia and some physical problems due to a very painful surgery for collapsed lung.
As for my mental health, I've been suffering now for somewhat 15 years. I've been to CBT(cognative behavioral therapy), certain medications, therapists, psychologists, docotors - You name it! I'm still now recieving the help I can possibly get through my National Health Service. I've had many jobs in the post but I've had to leave them due to my health issues worsening, I would love nothing more than to gain my recording equipment the conventional way and work hard, but most days I find myselh house bound, It takes me hours to pluck up the courage just to get out the door to the shops wich are like 2 secs away from my doorstep.
My OCD is a rather complex situation, it's in regards to food. I have a totally far-fetched way of seeing food, and I'm the first to admit this, even though its serious, and I'm underweight because of it. - Anything I eat that isn't of the right texture/taste ...I spit it out, it's a compulsive action that I've been doing now for the past 3 years to stop myself from being sick instead or having debilitating panic attacks, I also have to check the flat atleast 6/7 times before I make my way out the door, on top of the original anxiety I face getting out anyhow! It seems like a never ending cycle and there is too much stigma around to sometimes explain my ailments/conditions because people don't physically see them.
To be able to gain recording equipment for myself and the use of others who are disadvantaged like me(close friends whom suffer with what I have), it would mean the absolutely world to me. I can't simply express the words that would be able to express the feelings. Music to me is my way of keeping on a straight and narrow, to be able to pen my feelings on paper and then record them for the world to hear is a amazing way forward for me and my long road to recovery.
Just like indigogo says, I believe everyone should be given a platform to raise funds for whatever they like, so I'm taking a shot at it and hoping for the best. I know there are many generous individuals out there. Myself included(I donated to the bus monitor woman) ...
I want to end the stigma that is mental health, and open the doors for people who are too scared/embarrassed to open up due to potential abuse. Let's make a stand TOGETHER. We are not alone.